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Sunday, January 15th, 2006
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I thought I'd update my lj one last time before i just leave it for good.
Christ, it's been what, at least two years?
I'm sorry i didn't reply when you girls tried to see if i was still breathing, which i was.
I guess i got caught up in the world outside, and left lj for so long I felt guilty just updating once. Which I should've.
What's happened in the past two years? A few things, I'm at uni doing a double major in Law and Performance Singing with Dame Malvina Major. I've done a couple of singing competitions and done pretty well... I'm single again after a great long time in a long term relationship, Other than that, it's just been the same ol'.
I'm really sorry that i just up and left and didn't give a reason why, because I guess putting laziness into it isn't really enough- i think that i just outgrew my lotr love (which i still love, don't get me wrong) and started i guess to socialise outside of my computer.
I come back occasionally to peek at what's happening and see how everyone is but i don't i guess still do that often.
That said, I saw 'The Calcium Kid' on dvd yesterday and orli was absolutely gorgeous!
Thank you ladies so much for being such a big part of my life, I think when I didn't actually have much else. *Mwah* and goodbye!
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Sunday, August 24th, 2003
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The good?
We WON! WE WON! WE WON! YAY. We got Gold again, and won the Hutt Trophy (I went up to get it, yay) for best performance of a New Zealand piece. Wheeee. YAY.
And on the way back, Rachel and I got to hand out the lollies on the plane! YAY.
The bad?
I was sick ALL week, and lost my voice when it most counted. Crappity. Nurofen was my good good friend.
Went out to a party upon arrival. Got v.v. drunk.
The ugly?
Made a total prat out of self by throwing up. EW. I have never seen so much vomit in my entire life. Wine is of the evil.
The end? I have the best boyfriend in the world. Brendon took care of me while I was sick and looking like the ugliest turd that ever existed and then took me home. He then walked HOME! Silly boy. He could've crashed here. Or maybe he just wanted to get away from the pure ugly that I ended up looking like.
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Monday, August 18th, 2003
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I haven't updated in yonks, and not much has happened really...
Have been spending heaps of time with Brendon, and then he went away with his hockey team to play in Tournament week, and i'm going to see his hockey game tonight. I can't wait to see him in his own element. At any rate, tommorow morning I'll be on my way to the Nationals (Choral Federation) in Wellington. Early at the buttcrack of dawn, I'll trudge to the airport and then we're going to be straight into the competitions that same day. jesus. I'm going to be so knackered.
I've been such a slacker as well. I skipped 3 classes today and only went to 2. I didn't go to my lectures either. Oh well. I'm so unmotivated lately. I have to go now, and I probably won't have a chance to read your journals or update my own till Saturday, so:
Sokie, *hugs*. I hope everything works out with Kerry and other uni crap.
And the rest of you? Behave till Bkaw comes back.
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Wednesday, August 6th, 2003
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY [Bad username: helpful corn] !!!11!!!1!!
*throws streamers around*
*hits pinyada*
*pinyada opens and out comes the PRETTY!*
*Everybody rejoices*
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Wednesday, July 30th, 2003
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Its 3:25. I should be at my lecture. But i'm at home. I"m going to leave to catch the second hour of my lecture. When I mean catching the other half of my lecture, i mean i will go to the music common room and reread Harry Potter and make myself a cup of tea.
Its going to be a long long day. I don't need a 2 hour lecture to kill me now.
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Saturday, July 26th, 2003
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Last night was great. Brendon came over and played Trivial Pursuit, he kicked my ass twice. Cute, and smart. Big thumbs up. Snogged alot, and mom rang at about 11pm, where I was like,
"SHHHhhh. PLEASE BE QUIET!" and then lied about a whole lot of shit to my mother. I didn't like having to do that. It sucks, but I doubt she'd understand me dating right now.
Today however, has been hilarious. Went to redeem our vouchers for the Opera (got these tickets from school, and when I was offered them by the cute music coordinator guy I thought he was asking me out, and I nearly freaked out) and we got.... (wait for it)
A RESERVE TICKETS! These babies are like worth $85! I know! For FREE! I'm so excited. I should shower soon and get ready too. Rachel tried to find our way back and on the way, it turned into an adventure! We got lost (or attempted to) and this is how much of the conversation went.
J: Lets visit the marae!
R: The tolling bells will tell us where to go!
J: We can go onto the pa, and they'll show us the way home!
R: Do you think they'll be nice to us?
J: We'll just be part of the whanau, the whanau is nice!
We proceeded to get lost a bit more, until we found our way. It's impossible to get lost in ChCh. Ahh. *goes to get ready for the opera, and ring Brendon*
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Wednesday, July 23rd, 2003
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I have received nothing but encouragement and positive enthusiasm from you guys.
Thanks, loves!
What's new on the Brendon front... hmm.
Well, we now talk regularly online or on the phone, and we're not going about PDA-ing (public display of affection) at school, so I'm happy about that. He's been trying to get me to tell him when the next Bel Canto concert is, so he can come and see that and I've tried valiantly to fend him off. How embarrassing! We're doing choreography and embarrassing shit for Bel Canto... what if he thinks I look like a twat on stage? But to no avail, he's just going to find out from someone else. Damn. When I suggested that I might go and support him when he's playing hockey he was all "Yea, that'd be awesome. I'd love it if you came" so that backfired.
The buffy tape is waiting for me to watch. It's the final episode. I had to tape it because he rang. I will go and watch it now. *hugs to friends list*
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DREAGON!
Hope you have a good birthday filled with Orlando.
*puts big life sized box in front of Dreagon. It has breathing holes. I wonder what it could be*
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Wednesday, July 16th, 2003
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ITs not often that bkaw gets areal druinnkl.
BUT gotta say, its agood shi..t
BVkaw got hersdfl a formal date. Yay.
I hope i getup early enough for the dentist apoijtnemtnet.
Man my typing is bad when i'm intersbraited.
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GOD I HATE MY MOTHER.
I hate it when she tries to fucking parent me over the phone.
It's not cool. It isn't, at all. She just offered me $1000, if I get say, 5 A's in Bursary. That's all good and fine, but did she just try to bribe me to do well?
I don't mind the cash, I love the idea of cash. That's not the point however.
She really pissed me off when she tried to tell me that I needed to spend less time with my friends and more on my schoolwork. (Granted, I'm sure that's all good and fine. But right now, I'm on holiday. There's no way you're putting me to work when i don't really have to)
Oh and she wanted me to take advantage of my friends with school. Read their notes, she says. Be competitive with them, she says. Friends come and go, but you can always use them to get what you want.
FOR FUCK's SAKES. I'm not like that. I will not use my friends to gain academically. There is no way I'd do that to them. There is no way that you could think for one minute that I would be friends with someone because they were smart. I'm friends with people who I connect with (jesus that was cheesy) and have fun with, and be comfortable around. Friends aren't ladders to superficially better life. Friends are people you hang with because you like them, not their brainpower. God that fucked me off.
GRRR. In a way, I've brought myself up. My mother has never been here to indicate what I should have or have not done. I could have easily rebelled, and gone off the rails. I haven't. I set my own boundaries and my own goals. I don't want to live by my parents goals for me. Money will not sway me, though it's a great thing to have.
I'm a teenager. I deserve to be able to get drunk, be a stupid teenager, and have teenage experiences. I don't want to be a 30 year old in a 17 year old's body, nor do I want to have to regret not doing things that I wish I did when I was younger. I want to take advantage of my youth and have fun. I need that right now. It's the only thing keeping me sane. That, and those hot boys I hooked up with...
GODDAMMIT. If there's one thing I hate the most, its my parents pressuring me to study and to do well. I know they mean well, but if the motivation is not coming from me, then its as if i'm doing it for them. And i'm not. I'm doing it for me.
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Scream 2 is the epitome of crap teenage flicks designed for the cheap thrill. I'm SO above that crap. Then why the hell did I run out of the room at the first sign of the violin glissando? Damn it. I'm such a wimp.
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Saturday, July 12th, 2003
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The holidays? Are great.
The lazing about? Is great.
The procrastinating? Not so good.
I really should get onto all my stupid schoolwork, but i'm too LAZY. All I seem to do these holidays is go out (which I can't do now that I've spent all my money), and watch tv, and go to gym. *yawn* And i'm sleepy. Hee.
There WAS a purpose for updating.
Got hit on at the gym the other day by this Taiwanese guy when I was on the hip abductor machine. (For those who are going, "Hip Abduc-what?", It's a machine that involves squeezing with your legs. Its quite um, suggestive)
Firstly, I'm flattered. Secondly, NOT AT THE GYM. Shouldn't there be some unwritten rule that says, 'Please refrain from chatting up others when perusing gym equipment"
Isn't there?
Mmmm. Breakfast.
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Jesus its cold. Right now, I'm of the 'snow? SCHNOW!' mentality, instead of my 'wow, how pretty and white snow is!' of my past entries. The fucking weather is positively nipular. I might have to invest in a good pair of possum fur nipple warmers its that cold.
*hugs the heater*
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Bkaw's weekend of drunken debauchery is OVER! Here I am, nursing the smallest hangover (yay!) and having my brekkie. I shall recount the official tally of the past two nights:
10 bottles of vodka and cranberry/passionfruit
The equivalent of 1 1/2 bottles of drinks scabbed off others at parties
1 drunken snog
3 dirty dances
MANY wisecracks and oneliners
Gave out my number once
Heard the paedophile's song once too many times.. "runnin' her hand through my fro.."
Made many threats to males using this line:
"You hurt her, I'll break your shins. It's not hard!"
And there was more, but Yay! Bkaw went out and got drunk! Fun!
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Was just told that the guy i hooked up with had a tongue stud. Did I know that?
I HAD NO IDEA!
I just thought it was like a weird extra tooth! God i'm a dumbass.
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| Time: | 8:56 am. |
| Mood: | hee look at all the snow. | | Music: | Dj Vadim F. Sarah Jones- Your Revolution. |
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This is SO weird. I just woke up, it hasn't stopped snowing since last night, and CHCH is all white and fluffy and snowy and its so very weird. It's never snowed like this here before! People have said that its the biggest cold snap in 30 years, and for once i cn totally believe them. For one thing, I'm freezing my butt off and i'm swaddled in my duvet and its all princessy pretty outside! I have to take pictures. Hee!
Hm. Another thing. I don't entirely know how I feel about this, but I'll try and voice my thoughts on this matter. Okay, so I'm a bit of a stranger to partying and hooking up with guys there, so I might be a little naive. I just met some random guy (granted, I think I've seen him around school) at the semi-formal, got right down and dirty on the dancefloor with him and (aw, how cliched!) kissed him in the dying minutes of the last song. Okay. I'm not a slut, right? RIGHT? He did ask for my number, so I suppose he might call me, but then again my phone is broke and has no moola. Heh. I'm not sure if I particularly found him hot, but his body was something else. God, he's got such a nice chest. Mm. I don't know where I want to go with this, but I doubt this would be the start of a long and beautiful relationship.
Hee, I'm such a cow.
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YAYAYAYAY! And because its been a big long day, and I can't be bothered elaborating, here's something I ganked off Apwoh. Yea. Brill.
Five Things On My Desk:
1. Cell phone
2. pencils and paper
3. photos from ages ago
4. cds
5. old old mug i should have washed a long time ago
Five Things I'm Wearing: (i'll do what i was wearing tonight)
1. Black tulle dress from the 80's
2. Pair of black pumps with stilettoes, ala Working Girl
3. Pair of earrings i made at a bead shop
4. awesome coat
5. blue eyeshadow
Five Things I Did Today:
1. Went to school
2. Got hair done
3. Went to predrinks at Penny's and got sloshed
4. Danced all night at the semiformal
5. Was a bit of a slut.
Five Things That Made Me Smile Today:
1. Alcohol
2. The awesomeness of barbershop music
3. Dancing
4. the coolness of friends
5. Snogging some guy
Five Things I'm Going To Do Tonight:
1. Go to sleep
Five Things I'm Going To Do This Month:
1. Go to gym
2. Do my English assignment
3. Do my Music assignment
4. Accompany Rach for singing comps
5. Enjoy my holidays before my mother arrives
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On Friday my bitch of a computer fucked up on me, and it had to make a wee trip to the computer shop. But not before 500 mp3s had to be deleted, my Bursary music composition was lost, as were other important study guides that I had saved onto the computer, the massive Sibelius (music composition program) was deleted (it'll take DAYS TO DOWNLOAD AGAIN) and all in all. I have a shit computer. It even ONLY has 64MB RAM. That's like, nothing! NOTHING!
And I wanted to put Windows XP on the fucking thing. That's not going to happen. I can't afford to upgrade the memory, although I might just grovel to the rents and get them to pay for the extra memory.
BLAH. Other than that, I have one more week of school till the winter holidays. I have been dying for it. On the second to last day of school, I finally get to see the Bel Canto Vienna video, and we're going to have a potluck dinner and bringing photos and negatives... oh.. I miss Wien. Last day of term is going to be a whopper! Its the Semiformal night, and everybody's dressing up and it's going to be great fun, and hopefully I won't get drunk although I know a few people who have been planning to get me drunk... And then I'll be going to another party on Saturday night. All in all, bkaw is going to either be very hungover, or plain tired. My money is on tired. I probably won't make it to first period tommorow. *Yawns, and goes to bed*
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Wee Spoiler.
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Spent all Saturday after 12pm reading Harry Potter. Didn't finish till 1am. I'm so knackered, but it was really good. I did wonder why Rowling chose to portray Cho as a crybaby, but then again I held that character close to my heart. Good book. I don't think I'm ready to compare it to the other four, though.
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